Ok people, I am about to be as open as I will ever be on social media. There is a lot about my life that many people don’t know. I could literally write a novel on some of the experiences I’ve been through. However, I want to share a particular and extremely important moment in my life with you today.
Four years ago, I was in a relationship that I thought was a fairy tale. Unfortunately, it didn’t end as a “happily ever after.” I felt like God was testing me with obstacles in my life in order to make me stronger. I did gain a beautiful son out of this specific obstacle. I was 25 years old with a 2 week old infant son when I decided to leave the relationship. It was at this point in my life, I considered myself hitting “rock bottom.” When Braxton was born, I had severe hemorrhaging that ended with me having to get an emergency DNC immediately after I gave birth. If you know anything about this, all your hormones are scraped by hand from your uterus just like they do after an abortion. Doctors warned my parents that I was a good candidate for Postpartum Depression because of the doctor removing of all my hormones. Needless to say, I was a mess mentally. I had nowhere to go, so I ended up living back home with my parents with a 2 week old baby boy. I was sleeping on on my parents’ couch and not a dollar to my name. There is much more to that part of the story but I’ll save that for another time…
With only being a couple weeks postpartum, I couldn’t get a job quiet yet. I had a lot of formula and diapers to buy. I had to do something I never would have done unless there was no other choice. I have a lot of passions in life. Cycling was one of them. Before I became pregnant, I cycled all the time. It was something I did for me. My dad and I would ride our road bikes up South Mountain at least once a week and it was my escape. I absolutely loved it!!
Because my new born baby boy, Braxton was my priority, I chose to sell my bike, shoes, and helmet to by formula and diapers. It was a very sad day for me but I did what I had to do.
Fast forward 4 years and 2 months later. I am now a single parent of 2 incredible kids, working 2 jobs, while also trying to focus on myself. Today was such a BIG day for me because it may have taken me four years, but I was finally able to get a brand new road bike. What makes it even more special to me is this new bike is even nicer than my bike I was forced to sell.
As soon as the transaction was complete I burst into tears. I finally felt whole again. I did it!! I remember where I was 4 years ago, and I am so thankful for my struggles. I did what I had to do to survive. It taught me to be selfless and sacrifice for my babies for 4 years.
I have officially signed up for the Ironman 70.3 in Ocean Beach, California on April 6th, 2019. I am going to continue to grow and pursue my passion. Struggles make you stronger and I’m living proof that if you NEVER GIVE UP, you will succeed.
Wish me luck!!
Written By Casey Cosmann
Personal Trainer and Macros Coach